A treasure…priceless and rare.

                                             Like my child in Heaven,

                                        Now in God’s Tender Loving care

                                        Forever missed and forever loved.

This poem is really for my lovely angel. She will truly be missed by mom and dad. But her wonderful memories with us will always be cherished. We will never forget those happy times we’ve been together. We are very happy that God chose us to be your parents and be part of our lives. You are a gift given to us by God. We just didn’t expect that we’ll just spend time together that short. I know soon we’ll be seeing each other. I know you are very happy there…being with our Lord Jesus. I truly know that you are safe there. We’ll gonna miss you baby…..I promised mama will no longer cry….because you will be sad seeing us so depress and hopeless. We love you so much sweet angel Lean.

After the burial and internment of our daughter, I think that’s the most difficult time for us. We are still in the stage of denial and confusion. We always ask the Lord why it has to happen. We always cry at night. We had nightmares. We can’t sleep well. Our mind is very busy thinking why our daughter?…why Lean?…why she has to suffer that much?…from the very beginning she’s no longer a normal baby. She is congenital cerebral palsy. She can’t walk. She can’t crawl at her age. Maybe all the sufferings on earth were thrown at her. It makes us really felt bad. Our mind never stopped thinking about her…and it makes us insane. Sometimes I feel like I lost my sanity. But I think the Lord Almighty will not allow that to happen. And I thank the Lord for that because God is constantly reminding us that this is not the end…this is just the beginning of His wonderful plan for us. We have to move on. He is still working on His great plans for us. I know God has a purpose why Lean has to left us that early. In God’s perfect time…we will fully realize…what really is the purpose of Lean’s death.

I will never forget March 26, 2008. This is the very day when our 2 year old daughter left us and become one of God’s angels. She died because of dengue shock and pneumonia. It complicates that triggers a lot of organ dysfunctions. We’ve stayed in Davao Doctors Hospital for about two weeks but unfortunately we were not able to sustain because of lack of funds. We almost spent P 600,000.00 for 2 weeks and the doctor can’t commit a 100% assurance that Lean will be well soon. On the 25th day of March, Lean was declared brain dead. I almost collapsed when I heard the news. I am hoping she can recover and will be home soon. My family and my husband’s family decided to transfer Lean to a public hospital because of financial reason. Knowing Lean’s present status we still wanna fight for her life…up to her last few breaths. We’ve admitted her in DMC by 6:40pm after 6 hours…God took her away from us. She died at exactly 12:55 am. I remembered it well. How can a mother forget that fateful day. I felt that the entire universe was thrown at me. I think my heart was broken into pieces that day and I think no one can put it back.